Thursday, July 17

The fat of rams.

....aren't worth anything when obedience is not in the picture. i love it when God just breaks my heart. its such an awesome feeling. so good. so good. i read a devotion that ate verns sent, and once again it completely threw me off guard, in the sense that I had no idea it would touch & speak to me the way that it did. I HAVE.. and i DO hang my hopes on EVERYTHING besides God alone! and i felt so ashamed. He's been teaching me obedience, but I've been getting mundane and routine, seeking to check things off a list.. "God i'm done.." instead of.. "God can you go with me here? God, i'm gonna take you with me here, .. and here.. and everywhere. Most especially, in my heart." I listened to a message yesterday and the pastor was just saying that we really do need to take God in all circumstances and every breath of life. When you're mad, tell it to Him. When your heart is broken, cry out to Him. I once again listened to that song "Yearn".. and man, I really felt the Spirit working in my heart, i can't explain the intense worship feeling I felt. Similar to the time when I was listening to "God with us (Emmanuel)" by Mercy Me. Ties together with what I learned on Tues. --don't settle for mediocre worship. Always, always strive for higher.

To get to the bottom of all this..

11 "The multitude of your sacrifices— what are they to me?" says the LORD. "I have more than enough of burnt offerings, of rams and the fat of fattened animals; I have no pleasure in the blood of bulls and lambs and goats.
13 Stop bringing meaningless offerings! Your incense is detestable to me.
15 When you spread out your hands in prayer, I will hide my eyes from you; even if you offer many prayers, I will not listen. Your hands are full of blood;
16 wash and make yourselves clean. Take your evil deeds out of my sight! Stop doing wrong,
17 learn to do right!
isiah 1:11-17

.. getting right with God doesn't just fall in your lap. it takes an act. to wash, make, take, stop, & learn. .. i love these verses because they really hit home. i've been getting so caught up with sacrifice, and i thought i was learning obedience.. but.. really i've just been arrogant before God and showing Him that "i'm doing all these things for you already.." ... what a heartbreaker my God is. a beautiful heartbreaker, i mean. who else can burn away the calloused and decayed parts of my heart? I'm so glad that only God knows all the wretchedness and horrible things I think and do and say and so many other things.. and yet.. he loves me. what a beautiful and incredible thing it is.. that he shows us our sins in the light of His words.. and quietly and gently calls us back home.. to be consumed in mercy & grace.

... its interesting..i think my mom jacked a pastor's bible.. hehe.. cuz i found this bible and the notes in there are FREIKI'N CRAZY DUDE! like.. i get blessed by the things he writes and the way he boxes certain words and connects them to repeptive statments in other verses.. i'm like.. WOW! that's tight God i never noticed these things before.. haha.. for example.. in that verse up there.. isiah 1:15, it says "your hands are full of blood".. he put a square around the word blood.. and then connected it to the words "scarlet & crimson" in this verse:

18 "Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.

man.. its crazy! we were "covered in blood".. .. but God purges us of those staining sins.. even though He was so angry due to people worshipping in vain, when all was said and done.. He still calls us back in such a tender way.. "come now.. let us reason together"

phew. that's a lot of typing. i hope whoever even reads this will understand just what i'm saying. hehe i was just typing as i'm thinking.. there's actually a lot more details to what God has been showing me, but.. hey, ain't tryi'n to write a novel here.. hehe. here's one thing of my "to do list" (thank God! haha.. i've been so unproductive.. esp. because i've been hot & starving 95% of the time... ive been having a hard time working when i get dizzy.. but anyway:)


malorie said...

I was totally blessed by your revelation. sometimes we can get caught in the routine lifestyle of doing one thing after another, but God wants us just to take notice of him through all aspects of our lives.

katzy s said...

reminds me of psalm 51


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